Impossible Love

Sometimes I keep wishing for this love, a love that seems so impossible.

It has always been obvious when they r gonna make a move and make me their next prey
the glances, the goodies and the attention. I've always known when and what to expect.

When they finally throw the dart, well not all score. Some (sorry if I sound insulting) were definitely unqualified but they insisted then finally gave up.

Those who were lucky got the chance to be part of my crazy little world but they all screwed up. I know i dint screw up coz they all came back for another chance, for a love like mine... ha ha

I am done playing this seemingly boring game. I need something unique, explicit, irresistible, real. I need him to win me over without my knowledge, i wanna go like '...how come i never saw that coming'. I need him to concentrate on what’s inside (my personality) rather what’s outside (my appearance). Love ends sometimes but i need him to realize that sometimes love dies to live again.

I need him to be perfectly honest. I need him to tell me something like 'sorry baby, i cant seem to go on with this anymore, I’m attracted to another woman'
OR 'sorry baby, i screwed up real bad, last night i slept with another woman'
It will hurt like hell but i'd rather know than believe that he is a saint. I'll take it as a woman who knows that a man gotta do what a man gotta do just like a woman gotta do what a woman gotta do. In this era of all sorts of mysteries and deadly diseases I'll thank him in good faith. I know of course that no one is perfect, I aint either.

I know this sounds rather unimaginable or weird (whatever u wanna call it) but i keep wishing for this love, A love that seems so IMPOSSIBLE.

© Lauryn 2009